Doing Me...

In the last several years, there have been many situations where I have stepped, or been pushed in some cases, well out of my comfort zone.  I’m not sure why that’s been the case, but it has.  I think we all go through phases.  Growth phases maybe.  Or just times of change.  Its been scary sometimes. Exciting for sure.  But last week, when I was getting ready to publish my Facebook page for Kali’s Gift, I think that might have been right up there with the best of them.

My palms were sweaty, my heart was pounding in my chest.  Was this the right time?  Was I ready? Were things “done enough”? What if no one liked it? What if all this hard work (mine and others…I certainly didn’t do all this alone!) was a waste?

My first Facebook post on Kali’s Gift was one that I had seen online just recently, and it was certainly apropos:

Start with doubt? Check. Hands shaking? Check. Start where I am (ready or not)? Check. So, I clicked Publish.  The world didn’t come crashing down.  Some people liked my post and my page. I started, and now I keep going.

I read Brene Brown’s Braving the Wilderness a few months ago (I highly recommend it if you haven’t read it yet).  Over the course of the last few months, while working on the launch of Kali’s Gift, I thought a lot about this book. Be brave. Put yourself out there.  Don’t worry about what others think.  Do you.  Be your authentic self.

This way forward has really informed my teaching and is now informing my approach to my business. Yes, I want to be successful.  But I want to be successful doing me.  I have my own voice.  And you can be sure that my voice doesn’t speak to everyone.  And that’s just fine.  As Sadie Nardini puts it I need to find my tribe. Or they need to find me. They’re out there. It takes time.

I need to be brave and open and just be me.
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Publishing my first blog post on my first website is an exciting step.  But my hands aren’t shaking, and my heart isn’t pounding.  I already started.  This is just me, not stopping.